Wednesday 24

[madgravity]

Wednesday 24- I did my stretches, ran a mile, and lifted dumbbells.
Today’s Weather was: Temps of around 34 to 51 degrees, SW winds at 7 to 10 MPH, humidity around 50 percent, some clouds.
According to the National Weather Service: “Thanksgiving Day...Sunny. Highs 46 to 51. North wind 10 to 15 mph. Thursday Night...Clear. Lows around 33 in yucca valley...around 27 in twentynine palms. Northwest wind less than 10 mph.”
I mostly stayed inside and kicked back. I didn’t feel like going anywhere or seeing anyone. I’m kind of in a reflective mood today; like awakening from a long dream that seemed to be so real but only turned out to be just a delusional fantasy.
I read several chapters of “The Secret Warriors: A Men at War Novel” by WEB Griffin.
I did my stretches, practiced my guitar, wrote to my journal, posted it to the web, and called it a night.

Comments

[marahmarie]

"I mostly stayed inside and kicked back. I didn’t feel like going anywhere or seeing anyone. I’m kind of in a reflective mood today; like awakening from a long dream that seemed to be so real but only turned out to be just a delusional fantasy."

Oh wow. You've got to tell me what this was about. :)

[madgravity]

I will Marahmarie: I think that you had an awakening yourself recently. It's when you see the world in a different reality from what it was or what you thought it was. You either take action to correct or fall back into that prolonged dream where you felt safe but were actually deceiving yourself into thinking you were safe. You, Marahmarie, decided to stay awake and fight. I'm proud of you for that :)

[marahmarie]

Oh wow, this sounds familiar, but I already forget when this happened (and what happened, exactly)... *awaits refresher*

And how clever of you to turn the conversation back to me. But I get what you're saying, more or less...so if this is a positive thing for you, then I applaud it. Details or not. :)

edit: Oh. OK. I get it now - you were discussing my latest break-up with JR (Mr. Jealous Rage, or JR for short). And, yeah.

But he betrayed me on so many levels and did so much harm to us that I would have had to be in a coma to not wake up to the fact that he deserves to be alone or else to have some fat, ugly, unquestioning, simpering, desperate lunatic for a girlfriend (in other words, he doesn't deserve me).

Even a complete drooling idiot would have gotten the message loud and clear that he is all about himself and an actual danger - like already half-lit dynamite, he's not something you want to keep around. Please don't even get me started. I like to forget about him as much as I can.

[madgravity]

Yes, after I wrote that reply and slept on it, had made up my mind to edit it to say "coma" for what you went through (you beat me to it). Mine was never as horrible or that prolonged (weeks compared to years). Mine was just a lapse in judgment, a slight transgression of my reality compared to your deep dark dismal coma. I am sorry that I made you revisit this event; it was only intended for reference. I do think very highly of you Marahmarie!